You are growing so big, so fast. You love to giggle, especially when your Uncle Bill lifts you high above his head. You are a little daredevil already! When Dutch gave you a big, sloppy kiss you weren't sure if you liked it or not. You were so relaxed when I played you some spa music. You are a little spa baby. I can't wait to see what the next 6 months brings for you!
I've been using the room at the Gym to practice my dancing, choreography, and rhythms. I actually clocked in 4+ hours of dance time at the gym over the holiday weekend. I've started taking video of my choreography and I'm planning on starting a private YouTube page so I can post little teaser videos. The first song I choreographed was Marc Anthony's Vivir Mi Vida. Enjoy the music for now.... my dance video is coming soon!
If I had a theme song it would definitely be something upbeat, fun, and dance-worthy. Since January, I've been taking Zumba classes at the gym. I've been listening to a lot of Daddy Yankee, Wisin & Yandel, DLG, and Romeo Santos. I have no idea what Daddy Yankee is saying in the video above but I listen AND dance to this song at least once a day. It should be a requirement that I understand the words of my theme song but as of this time in my life Latin music is my theme! After leaving one of the Zumba classes in the Winter the instructor approached myself, my sister-in-law, and cousin-in-law and mentioned how much fun we were! She said we should look into instructing. What a huge boost of self confidence! I had actually been having so much fun with the classes that I had already been thinking about it as a little side venture to do after work. Having someone who already had the training recommend that I do it was the push in the right direction.
Every week, I would be antsy for Friday to arrive. And not because it was the weekend (well, maybe a little bit) but Friday evening was the Zumba class. Zumba makes me feel good, sweaty, and ready to take on the world. The more classes I went to, the more I understood the moves and started memorizing songs. The more I started memorizing the songs, the more confident and sexy I felt. I was listening to Latin music in my car. I was dancing at home. I was feeeeeeeling amazing. I was ready to take this to the next level.
With all of that being said. I decided to take a leap and I became Zumba certified a couple weeks ago. I've never felt such a connection with a hobby before.... it's beyond my yoga connection. It's that intense. I love dancing and I love the intensity. I love feeling the music. I'm still in the process of putting my songs and choreography together. It's been really hard work to make it perfect. I am making a ton of progress and I'm feeling fantastic. I love Zumba.
I am loving this song. No matter what's happening at the time this song makes me want to get up and dance my heart out! It is so upbeat and positive. This song feels so fitting after yesterday's post.
Today, I am cleaning. Cleaning out some messy issues that need to be swept up and taken out. I have a hard time not being friendly towards people... even the ones that have treated me like a pile of poo. I think I am so sensitive to feelings and it makes me uncomfortable when a relationship has gone sour. I still want to be friendly even though my insides are boiling with resentment. It's hard to let go of the pain that someone else has caused and clean the slate. I just haven't matured enough to be 'real' in some situations. I've been wanting to wash my hands of some past grudg-iness and what better way than to write in my blog. What happens in my life when I stop being polite and start being real?! Let's begin here....
I've come to terms that there are people in my life that don't deserve to be around. I don't want to create any waves in the pond of my life so they are there simply because I can't be real enough to tell them they aren't welcome around here anymore. That needs to change. People grow and change.... and that's okay. In fact, it's great. What's not okay is faking it because that's easier. Holding onto resentment because someone has hurt me in the past is very, very unhealthy. There's a better way for me to live. I've heard it's the best feeling to let go.... But I'm not even sure I know the feeling. I can forgive and I've done that a million times but how can I move forward and forget? I'm putting my best foot forward, taking a deep breath, and living one day at a time.
I'm still a work in progress. I know the first step is admitting that I need to let go of negative and resentful feelings. That I pretend to be at peace with people or a situation. I am slowly learning that clinging to a negative situation only robs me of the present moment. Moments I could enjoy and bless instead of curse. In order for me to live a happy and authentic life, I need to come to terms with this flaw. No matter what happens... life will go on. And it's finally time for me to take the garbage out.
Have I ever mentioned that I think my blog is better (and much less expensive) than therapy? Well, it is.
"What a gift of grace to be able to take the chaos from within and from it create a semblance of order."
There are times in your life when you just know.... you feel in your heart that you are making the best decision, the right decision. There is an internal awareness that something special and magical is unfolding. They day I married Bill was perfect (a little chilly but all I wanted was an outdoor wedding!) and one of the most transforming days of my life. I made a commitment that day to love and to honor, to nurture, serve and support him in times of joy and in times of difficulty. I promised with all of my heart and soul to honor this vow until death do us part. And I never plan on forgetting the promise and commitment I made. The past 3 years have been a whirlwind.... I can't believe it's been 3 years already! There's been amazing moments, frustration, laughter, anxiety, joy, and struggle. But every year that goes by I fall more and more in love. It's not easy... but when it's right... you just know. It's all worth it. We've got that magic.
I've read that women are happiest and most comfortable in their own skin when they are in their 30's. I definitely agree. Marriage suits me and my workouts combined with Zumba have made me stronger than ever. It's hard to believe I'm 31, I think I feel like I'm 24. I remember when I was younger and someone would say they were 30 and thinking that they were old. Yikes! I don't want to get older!
I wanted to preserve my face and body with an anniversary gift to my husband in May. Something he could keep and enjoy forever. So my friend (and wedding photographer) came up with a super incredible idea. Two words: Boudoir session. Of course, we printed the pictures in a leather bound book because your 3rd anniversary is the year of leather! I won't be able to share all of the pictures but let me assure you that it's sizzlin'! 31 is definitely looking good on me.
I pride myself on not watching a lot of television and not getting sucked into shows very easily. Walking Dead? Meh. Downton Abbey? Never seen it. Dare I admit though that I am obsessed with The Bachelor/Bachelorette franchise? Sorry. Don't judge me and don't quit reading because I've got an amazing show to tell you about. I had seen a couple Facebook posts about 'House of Cards' and wondered what the heck it even was. So I did what any normal person would do: I Googled it. Bill and I have Netflix so one chilly night I convinced him that we should watch a 45 minutes TV show instead of a long movie. Of course, I was thinking that we'd just watch the one show and wouldn't be stuck in front of the TV for the rest of the night. W-R-O-N-G. After 1 episode we looked at each other and said "Another?" So for the last couple weeks we've been enjoying all of the episodes of House of Cards. We never watched an episode without each other and it became a nice little reprieve from our days. I ended up recommending the shows to a couple friends and 2 of them watched the ENTIRE SEASON in a weekend. The acting is fantastic, the story line is intelligent, and the drama is completely gripping. Two thumbs up from this lady!
